In the 'MEAN'time

Okay -- so I know it's been almost three weeks since my last post, but life has been BUSY!!   So here you go . . . . .

Ever feel like you're so close to making some kind of breakthrough?  Like you're just on the brink of a huge revelation?  It's no secret from my posts that things haven't been easy since coming back from the resort.  For some reason my motivation has been dwindling since coming back.  I just can't seem to connect my head and my heart when it comes to diet and exercise.  And there are many times where I feel like I just want to give up.  But I know that I need to go through this.  I know that I need to experience every bit of this journey.  Every high and every low.  If I truly want to help other people with their weight loss (which I really do) then I have to know what they're experience first hand.  So that leads me to in the 'mean'time.

Last week our sermon was all about having faith in the 'mean'time.  And what a sermon it was -- I highly recommend you check it out if you have the time -- http://www.lcbcchurch.com/media/ -- "Stuck".  It began with Journey's song, 'Don't Stop Believing', which of course always makes you want to smile.  He then proceeded to talk about the faith that Abrham (Abraham) had to believe in God's promise that he would make him a father of many nations.  Now the reason this was so poignant for me right now -- and yes, I honestly felt like the pastor had read my journal!! -- is because I feel like my life has been a series of steps (well, more like leaps) of faith.  And putting it into that perspective, I am encouraged when I think about this current journey and challenged to apply my faith to it as well. Now what exactly that means, I'm not sure :)

For me, my biggest challenge up until this point was my singleness.  I had to laugh at the sermon because if you listen you'll see he makes the comment that Abrham had to wait more than a decade for his promise from God to be fulfilled. He then makes the comment that usually we don't have to wait nearly that long for our promises to be fulfilled -- that's when I turned to my friend next to me and said -- wait, what?  I've waited more than a decade to have a family!!!  But rather than crying at that comment, I was laughing.  That's because that challenge has finally gotten to the point where I trust God completely.  I know He is good and He is great (check out the sermon from today to understand that comment :) ).  And I can finally say after a VERY long time that I do trust Him.  And I am happy with whatever He decides.  It's the most amazingly freeing feeling.  Now if only I could apply it to this challenge -- we'd be golden :) 

So -- how can I apply it?  Hmmm . . . well, considering food is something you have to deal with on a daily, sometimes hourly basis, it makes it a little tougher.  I've tried praying whenever I have the urge to eat -- doesn't seem to work.  I've tried to recite bible verses.  Doesn't seem to work either.  Hmm . . this one's tough. I had started reading a book when I was at the resort that I had picked up at Saddleback when I was there called Crave that talked about this very thing -- maybe I should pick it back up . . . ya think? :)

I'll keep you posted on this one in the 'MEAN'time :)