"It's Time to Start Being Honest"

These words from Dolvett on The Biggest Loser struck home for me today.  I honestly think this is my biggest problem.  I feel like I'm only reminded when I look in the mirror how much I weigh.  And that is scarey.  There are a few moments that I remember where someone else has pointed it out to me or a shopping trip has reminded me, but honestly because I don't struggle to physically get around or have a constant 'in my face' reminder it's almost as if the desire to feel the comfort from eating overpowers the reminder that I'm overweight and I forget and choose the food.  I think this week I'll try putting post it's on the fridge and on the cabinets with questions like 'Are you sure?' 'Will this get you to 160 lbs?', or 'Will this help you to your goal?'.  I'll keep you posted on how that works :)

As far as the last few months I haven't really posted because as much as I wanted to get back on track, it's hard during the holidays to do anything consistantly. I have tried to keep moving and have done a pretty good job of that.  For the last week, I've been really consistant in my workouts with alternating strength training and walking 5 out of the 7 days.  And I've been keeping my calories within 2500 or less 4 out of the 7 days.  This week I'm going to keep the workout 5 out of the 7 days and try to keep the calories 2500 or less 7 out of the 7 days.  Then I'll move it down to 2300.  Eventually I'll get down to 1500 which is the goal.  This total is counting the workout calories. 

I have set up goals for myself as far as when I reach this weight, I can get my hair cut, when I reach this weight, I can schedule a massage for myself, etc., trying to keep away from food rewards. 

I have a new cookbook "Hungry Girl to the Max" that gives you options for low calories substitions for high calorie foods and I've already experimented with some of the recipes and found a great peanut butter cup cheescake recipe that's low calorie!

So I've armed myself for the battle . . . now I need a visual for the enemy everytime it subtly attacks me!  Fight on!!!